Monday, October 10, 2011

Back to Basics

It seems that almost everyone is overloaded right now.  We have too much work, too many bills, and not nearly enough time.  I see clients week after week complaining, "my body is falling apart" as they work a job they cannot stand or fill their lives with obligations they do not enjoy.

Why do we do this to ourselves?  Economic uncertainty makes us afraid to change jobs.  We are afraid to say no anymore.  We have a bunch of "should's" that eat into our time, and so we fit in everything but ourselves.  Week after week, we ignore ourselves, and we ignore the suffering in our bodies and minds.

I understand this because I have been doing it too.  Over the last year, my business has grown significantly.  Time for the things I love has dwindled, as I have chased after what I thought I "should" do.  I have wondered day after day, "why does my back still hurt?" when there was no physical reason.  Doing healing on myself kept coming up with the same answer: I had to change my life.  No amount of healing work will fix your pain if you are unwilling to change what causes that pain.  For your wound to heal, you must stop stabbing yourself.

My son has asked me, "Mommy, do you have to work today?"  After hearing this too many times, I had to tell him: I will cut back, one way or another.  It is partly for him, yes, but it is mostly for me.  I want to make this point here very clear:  I am being selfish.  Missing his early years is not an option.  Most of us could do with a little more selfishness, instead of just giving ourselves away.

People thrive in different environments, and I am not ashamed to admit I am NOT a Type A personality.  I thrive on peacefulness and calm.  I thrive on quality one-on-one time and freedom to do what I need to do for me.  If we put our focus back on ourselves, I think we can all have that.  We fit in the things and people we love, and they will fit us in too, because it's mutually beneficial.  This would free up so much resentment that our hearts would open.

So with no regret, I have decided to practice what I preach.  I am going back to being a solo practitioner again.   Hooray!  No more long hours of bookkeeping, janitorial duties, and management.  I just want to work on clients, and so that is what I'm going to do.  The achiever in me is reluctant to give away the title "Spa Owner", but the real person underneath is happy just to be me again.

That's what I am doing for me.  I feel a tremendous sense of relief already.  I cannot serve others by ignoring myself. 

So what can you change in your life today to benefit you?  I bet that the whole world will benefit from it too.